My Life

Hello my friends!

Welcome to the beginning of what I hope to be a journey to a healthier and happier lifestyle. Through this blog I hope to navigate through my own trials of weight loss and my quest to become a better person in the process. Now, I am not naive enough to believe that losing the weight is going to make my life suddenly amazing, but I do think that it will lessen the burden held not only by myself but by my family. 

Now, this is not my first rodeo. I have done diet after diet and in truth a couple have worked, I had lost almost 30 pounds at one point, but the fact is that none of the diets presented me with a long term solution. None of them configured to my busy schedule or took into account when stress and emotions come into play. So, last week I sat down and made a plan based on what I know about myself and about my body. I first made a list of what I knew I needed to change: 

• Fast Food
• Exercise
• Emotional Eating

 These are my biggest challenges and thus the first things that I need to address in my new life-plan. 

I am one for convenience so after a long day in class or at work I am one of the first in the drive-thru line at my favorite fast food place. Can we say heart attack in a bag? It is just a matter of time before the greasy hamburger becomes my gravestone. This, while difficult is not complicated to change. Fast food places are off the map from now on! This does not mean I cannot go out with friends or family to a restaurant, but on my own I am not to step one foot in front of a fast food place. Since this is the case, the money going to fund my greasy habit will now be invested in easy microwavable or skillet frozen meals so that after the long day I won't have to worry about cooking and therefore am less tempted to stop and pick something up.

My lifestyle, while busy is not an active one. I do not walk very much or exert any real effort in any physical way. This HAS to change. I have learned that while it sucks to work out, and I know it sucks once you do it you come out feeling on top of the world. Your muscles ache and you can't catch your breath but you feel accomplished and just really good about yourself later. The main problem is getting off my ass to actually go. I am going to solve this by enlisting one of my good (motivated) friends to be my workout buddy. This leaves me less likely to ditch since someone else is counting on me to show up. We sat down and figured out a schedule that worked for both of us and are going to make use of our University gym to work out at least three days a week. A lot I know but I think it will be both a tiring and rewarding experience. 

The last of my challenges is by far the hardest and most complicated to fix. Emotions are a tricky thing and whether it be stress, depression or PMS my comfort is always food. This has been the case for as long as I can remember. It is almost like an addiction, I need my fix to feel better. The only way to change this is by identifying what makes me turn to food and find out ways to at least curve it so that I don't go on a binge marathon. I am a strict believer in letting yourself have a bad day but there is a difference between a bad day and eating everything in the refrigerator that is bad for you plus buying a package of Oreo's to make you numb. Once I know my triggers I can start distracting myself with something else before I get to that bad of a place. 

All in all I think I am off to a good start in my healthy life goal. A diet that is made for me and doesn't cost anything but time :) I can only hope that I can work through all of this and get myself to a better place emotionally and physically. 

Holding Hope,

College Fat Girl